Wednesday 9/14/2016

It's a long slow road back to reality and I can't say I'm thrilled about the journey. I'm so tired of what I'm going through and how my life is. I want to make some serious changes and the biggest obstacle I'm facing is the guy staring back at me in the mirror. I feel so fearful for some unknown reason and it's really pissing me off. I want to get a real job and that's a great uphill battle for some reason. I want to do better for my family and my wife. I know she's feeling a lot of pressure having to carry the load for us and I'm ashamed about that. I have to get a real job soon or I'm afraid I might loose her. The last thing I want to do is have my marriage end because of my bullshit.